This may or may not come as a shock to some of you guys, but I've got to get a handle on my weight gain. I'm finally heavy enough (again) where I'm having my "scared straight" moment. Seriously, it's getting out of hand. And, until now, I've done nothing but watch the calories pile on.

I signed up for a gym . And, tomorrow, I'm meeting with a personal trainer who is going to evaluate my current level of "fitness." Stay tuned for the followup video to that, because I'm sure I'll be discussing my body fat percentage, my BMI, my physical capabilities and more. In this video, I'll be ...

This may or may not come as a shock to some of you guys, but I've got to get a handle on my weight gain. I'm finally heavy enough (again) where I'm having my "scared straight" moment. Seriously, it's getting out of hand. And, until now, I've done nothing but watch the calories pile on.

I signed up for a gym . And, tomorrow, I'm meeting with a personal trainer who is going to evaluate my current level of "fitness." Stay tuned for the followup video to that, because I'm sure I'll be discussing my body fat percentage, my BMI, my physical capabilities and more. In this video, I'll be discussing the decisions and bad habits that led me to this point. I'll talk about how my feeder enables my weight gain, and even delights in my inability to stop the onslaught of calories from sticking to my waistline. I talk about all of my softening, flabby features and step on the scale to give you my latest weight . Stepping on the scale is like truth serum. I can't deny the number, even if I have to lean forward to see it past my poor swollen belly.

I just know that the trainer is going to tell me that I'm obese. But, then again, I don't think I'll ever be skinny again. I don't want to be. In fact, I don't even want to stop being a feedee or stuffing myself. I just want to find some balance where I can be a little more physically fit and capable, while still sporting this big belly and soft titties. So, watch me navigate this tricky path- both in this video and in the coming months. I've got a vacation coming up in the Fall, and I'd like to build up the confidence to wear a swimsuit. I utterly failed the last time I tried to get in shape for a beach vacation. We'll see what happens this time.